The first quarter of the year is usually the busiest for me at work. To be honest, any time of the year is always busy if you work in HR like me. As early as December last year I’ve mentally prepared myself to brace on endless meetings, longer working hours, while squeezing my personal obligations and responsibilities in between. And then suddenly, COVID-19 happened.
No one saw it coming. When I first heard of it in January, I lightly brushed it off when my sister who lives in Tokyo messaged us that a number of illness cases were showing up in the North Asia region. In February, there were 3 cases in Manila. I was a bit alarmed: I started wearing a mask when walking outdoors and I regularly sanitized and washed my hands to ease of my paranoia. Although at the back of my head I was thinking, what are the odds that me or my family will be infected if there were only 3 cases in the city?
Sliding in to March, another case surfaced. The case was a few blocks away from my office and from there the panic was heightened. By mid of March, additional cases continue to surface and so our government decided to lockdown the city and imposed community quarantine. Since I work in HR, I got involved to numerous discussions and meetings to keep our employees safe and secure. It is now Day 14 of the community quarantine from where I live. All of us are staying at home and working remotely. To be honest, I feel so drained and tired more than ever. At the same time, I feel anxious and sad that this is happening.
I read this article earlier this week and the message definitely hit me hard. I shared this article in my Facebook profile and I admit that my current space is still in between denial and resistance. I’m in denial that the normalcy of how things were is no longer present, and I’m resisting to accept that the situation may last longer than expected. It’s not even helping when there’s a lot of noise from the social media. I really feel bad of what’s happening. And selfishly (and I’m ashamed of this), I feel bad that my personal plans to go on vacation will no longer push through despite the hustle and bustle of the first quarter even without COVID.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who’s in this space right now. At the end of the day, all I can think of is that we will all power through on this. In one way or another, this too shall pass.
If you’re reading this and you feel the same way that I am, please know that I am here. And let’s keep going. ❤️